Wednesday, August 26, 2009

3 In A Row, Plus One On The Way

The big question that made it possible for Mpule Kwelagobe to win Miss Universe In 1999 was when she was asked, ''If you become Miss Universe tonight, and during your reign you fall pregnant, what action would you like the organisers to be taken agaisnt you?''. And she answered, ''The reason why a woman was brought to earth was to give birth to children, so if i fall pregnant during my reign i'll gladly walk out the door with my head held high and go home, because if don't give birth, who will?''. And Mpule put our country, Botswana on the map that night when she was crowned Miss Universe 1999.

All i can say now is i just can't wait for next month, Sept, when i'll be bringing another life into this world. I wanted it to be a surprise, but the baby shower organisers wanted the sex of the baby. So guys i'm having another boy! I must admit, it has been a great pregnancy. No morning sicknesses, no cravings, nothing! All in all, 7years down the line, its feeling like the first time. Right now when i'm writting this he's kicking so fast i think the waters are gonna break at any time.This is my last post for the year. Will be gone for 3 months, that means see y'all next year.

If you wondering why, don't! Because if i don't give birth, who will?

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

One Day Took It All...Just One Day.

Ever since i became me, there have been days when i wished i were dead. There were days when i wished time could just stand still. There were happy days and sad days. Crying days and laughing days. There were moments when I thought things could go exactly the way I wanted. Those days when I wished life could center only around me. Some of those days when I wished I couldn’t regret anything I went through in my life. I do remember those bad days I had.

The day when somebody told me they were not ready to take care of ‘some’ babies, when I was pregnant with his child. Ha! A baby that was made outta love. The day when somebody told me that I was going to use the spare bedroom that night because ‘his’ girlfriend was around. I’m talking about the person I spent almost ten years with. The person I regarded as my boyfriend at that time. The day when my dad stabbed my mum with a knife and luck had it our way. God took him instead.

The day when Jeddah broke his arm. I didn’t come to work that morning. Went straight to board a bus home. The day when my cousin was jailed for a crime he didn’t commit. God will bear him witness. How do you start believing that someone like him can rape his very own 2 year old niece?...

I do remember those good days too. I remember the 18th Of June, 23rd June, 20th October, 4th November and 25th December. I happily celebrate these days every year. These are my birthday, my mum’s birthday, Jnr’s birthday, Jeddah’s birthday and Vicky’s birthday, respectively. The first days I held my own kids in my arms. The day I started my first job. I can’t stop thinking’ about the first day we met. Me and him. All those nights. The days I went partying with my colleagues. All those days, have come and gone.

There’s just one day that’s gonna take a long time to forget. Or maybe I’ll never forget it at all. A day that took away my everything. Everything i depended on. For guidance, for strength, for wisdom. 1st Aug 2009. She has been the pillar of strength for this family. She’s been sick I know, but I do feel that it wasn’t yet time. I had hope. We all had hope. That one day she was gonna stand up and walk. That one day she was gonna stand brave and talk. How am I going to live a normal life now? Knowing that there wont be any other person to call D.K anymore? I won’t have a reason to smile when I go to the village anymore.

Why did it have to be now? Why did she had to go now, when…when everything was going so well for me? She won’t be there for my wedding. She won’t be there when this baby is born? D.K, you should have waited for at least a coupla more months you know? Just a few months.

My grandma was buried on the 8th of August 2009, and i wasn't there to bid her farewell. Click HERE to read about a woman who, in so many ways, has contributed a lot to the woman i am today.
May your soul rest in peace DK. Your life was simple but it was a life that i would give anything to have lived.