I think i was either two or three years.Gues my mum was 21 by then.I was staying with her then,in another part of town.My mum was working,selling some food(take-aways) in a caravan at some place i can't remember well now,but i remember she used to bring me all that was cooked there every nite she came home.One morning i woke up still with the fat cake in my hand,gobbled up a little,there and there.
The other event that i remember quiet well is the night when a man came to our little room(gues it's the one my mum was renting) and beat my mum up.I gues it was mama's boyfriend or anything.I remember him knocking and my mum refused to open the door.I was sleeping with my mum on the same bed.The guy went to the back and told my mum to open the window then,still mama refused.
He smashed the window and the glass fell on us,he opened and got in.By this time we were awake with mama and standing in the middle of the house.He started beating my mum real hard.Throwing her on the floor.I can't remember where i was that time but i know i was crying then.I remember he slapped me and shouted at me to keep quiet.He continued beating mama.I remember the blood from mama's nose.
Luckily somebody called the police or something because in no time i heard the police car pulling up out side.And then i remember again going inside the police station.The guy was handcuffed and was walking in front of me with just his underwear.And i remember again inside the police office mama being asked questions and the police officer writting it down.And the guy was asked next.
Then i donno what happened after that coz i never saw the guy again.But i still remember how he looked like.He was a coloured,tall and always had a serious face.
So much of my childhood memories...
Sunday, February 25, 2007
Along Came Jo'
Two weeks back.It was on friday.I called Doc to see where she was.She told me that she was on her way to my other cousins place in G-west.And asked me to come over after work.
Two houses to my cousin's,there's a car packed on the sideroad,one short guy and a fat one comes from the other house walking to the packed car.The short one sees me and stops.
''Excuse me,can i please drop you off to where you going or can i have your number?''
''Thanx,but i'm almost home,just two blocks...and i don't have a phone''.(would i have given him the number if i had the phone?..don't wanna lie,i aint sure.
''Okay,can i have any landline you use?''
''I don't have any landline''
''Okay then,take my number and please call me?''
I took out a toilet tissue and wrote on there.His friend went like, ''Ai!,chomi she's just written your number on a toilet tissue,du think she'll call?''
I left.
He shouted,''hey,by the way..am Joe''
We hanged around at my cousin's...yes drinking.And then it was around past 11pm when Doc wanted to go home.We tried calling the cabs and even waited at the side road hoping to see one pass by,but we failed.
We were lost for hope now but Doc had to get home.Her husband was going some place early the next morning so she had to prepare his luggage and some other stuff he was gonna need.
''Doc,can lemme have your phone?''.Then i sent that short guy a message that we needed a car to get my cousin to her house,and that if he didnt mind we would put fuel for him.He sent back saying he was still in a meeting and that he'll holla back when he was done.
Doc is a very impatient woman so we went to the nearest hangout place.There's a club there and some coupla restuarants.Doc got a cab and we went back home.I spent the night at my cousin's.
That was on friday neh?..saturday..sunday..and then monday i went to work.I knocked off a lil late i remember.Then went home.Bathed,cooked and the watched part one of Blood Sisters(Nigerian movie).I went to sleep i gues around 9pm or so...
I was in a very deep sleep when i heard the knock on my door.It was around 10pm i gues.I thought i was dreaming but then the knock continued.Usually when i hear a knock on my door,my heart would skip and start beating so fast cause i don't usually have anybody coming to my house.I pipped thru the bedroom window.Good Lord! It was that Joe!
''And then..wena?''
''Ermm.i..i...i got the directions from your cousin Dorcas''
''What the hell are you doing here?''
''I wanted to see you...in fact..i had to see you''
Got off the bed,unlocked the kitchen door and showed him in.Two couches in the kitchen.We sat down and started talking.He told me about him running a company that has just went bankrupt and closed down.His 3 past relationships.He says he's from South Africa.Bloodshot eyes.Hitched-up shoulders.
Abeg!..people!...so this murtherf...this guy comes to my house,disturbs my sleep to tell me about all that?,doesn't he know i was going to work tomorow?.No! because he didn't know i was working.Dammnn...
''So how did you know where i leaved?''
''On friday when you sent me an sms with Dorcas' phone i was still in a meeting(inside i went like,meeting my ass,which meeting cos you said the company just went down),and then when i was thru i called Doc and she said she had gone home already.She told me she left you guys by the shops,i asked her what you were wearing and i went there to look for you,but couldn't find you.I called her yesterday and she told me the directions to your house.That's y lended here''
Shit! Doc! How many times should i tell her never to do a thing like that? She even has the tendency of giving people my number when i made it perfectly clear to her not to!
''So,gone fela mme,what brings you here?''
''I think i fell in love with you Jay,from the moment i saw you that friday i knew i had to be with you''
I stood up,opened the door,i saw the landlady seeting by her varandar oppsite my house.
''Joe,get out!''
He wanted to protest.
''I said get out!''.This time i shouted a little so that the old woman could hear.
He left without saying a word.Now wait till Dorcas comes back from Francistown!
Last nite i was there at Mafikizolo.I was with my work mates-Kgalalelo,Thabang and Portia.We left around 4am.When we got out,he was there packed outside.
He came towards when he saw me. ''Would you mind a ride home?''
''Thanx but we've already called a cab''.
There are better people i can relate my stories to...not to any Jack and Jill...
Two houses to my cousin's,there's a car packed on the sideroad,one short guy and a fat one comes from the other house walking to the packed car.The short one sees me and stops.
''Excuse me,can i please drop you off to where you going or can i have your number?''
''Thanx,but i'm almost home,just two blocks...and i don't have a phone''.(would i have given him the number if i had the phone?..don't wanna lie,i aint sure.
''Okay,can i have any landline you use?''
''I don't have any landline''
''Okay then,take my number and please call me?''
I took out a toilet tissue and wrote on there.His friend went like, ''Ai!,chomi she's just written your number on a toilet tissue,du think she'll call?''
I left.
He shouted,''hey,by the way..am Joe''
We hanged around at my cousin's...yes drinking.And then it was around past 11pm when Doc wanted to go home.We tried calling the cabs and even waited at the side road hoping to see one pass by,but we failed.
We were lost for hope now but Doc had to get home.Her husband was going some place early the next morning so she had to prepare his luggage and some other stuff he was gonna need.
''Doc,can lemme have your phone?''.Then i sent that short guy a message that we needed a car to get my cousin to her house,and that if he didnt mind we would put fuel for him.He sent back saying he was still in a meeting and that he'll holla back when he was done.
Doc is a very impatient woman so we went to the nearest hangout place.There's a club there and some coupla restuarants.Doc got a cab and we went back home.I spent the night at my cousin's.
That was on friday neh?..saturday..sunday..and then monday i went to work.I knocked off a lil late i remember.Then went home.Bathed,cooked and the watched part one of Blood Sisters(Nigerian movie).I went to sleep i gues around 9pm or so...
I was in a very deep sleep when i heard the knock on my door.It was around 10pm i gues.I thought i was dreaming but then the knock continued.Usually when i hear a knock on my door,my heart would skip and start beating so fast cause i don't usually have anybody coming to my house.I pipped thru the bedroom window.Good Lord! It was that Joe!
''And then..wena?''
''Ermm.i..i...i got the directions from your cousin Dorcas''
''What the hell are you doing here?''
''I wanted to see you...in fact..i had to see you''
Got off the bed,unlocked the kitchen door and showed him in.Two couches in the kitchen.We sat down and started talking.He told me about him running a company that has just went bankrupt and closed down.His 3 past relationships.He says he's from South Africa.Bloodshot eyes.Hitched-up shoulders.
Abeg!..people!...so this murtherf...this guy comes to my house,disturbs my sleep to tell me about all that?,doesn't he know i was going to work tomorow?.No! because he didn't know i was working.Dammnn...
''So how did you know where i leaved?''
''On friday when you sent me an sms with Dorcas' phone i was still in a meeting(inside i went like,meeting my ass,which meeting cos you said the company just went down),and then when i was thru i called Doc and she said she had gone home already.She told me she left you guys by the shops,i asked her what you were wearing and i went there to look for you,but couldn't find you.I called her yesterday and she told me the directions to your house.That's y lended here''
Shit! Doc! How many times should i tell her never to do a thing like that? She even has the tendency of giving people my number when i made it perfectly clear to her not to!
''So,gone fela mme,what brings you here?''
''I think i fell in love with you Jay,from the moment i saw you that friday i knew i had to be with you''
I stood up,opened the door,i saw the landlady seeting by her varandar oppsite my house.
''Joe,get out!''
He wanted to protest.
''I said get out!''.This time i shouted a little so that the old woman could hear.
He left without saying a word.Now wait till Dorcas comes back from Francistown!
Last nite i was there at Mafikizolo.I was with my work mates-Kgalalelo,Thabang and Portia.We left around 4am.When we got out,he was there packed outside.
He came towards when he saw me. ''Would you mind a ride home?''
''Thanx but we've already called a cab''.
There are better people i can relate my stories to...not to any Jack and Jill...
Saturday, February 10, 2007
Messages From My Mail
1.At least 5 people in this world love you so much they would die for you
Oh yeah..i know...the 3 stoogies,my mum and of course myself
2.At least 15 people in this world love you in some way
i wish i knew those
3.The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you
I believe that,she had always wanted to be in my shoes,she always wanted to know how Edwin and i are doing,she wanted Edwin..well she can have him now...
4.A simple smile from you can bring happiness to anyone,even if they don't like you
Yah...i know
5.Every night,SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to bed
...true...the 3 stoogies and my mum
6.You mean the world to someone
...and to my self too
7.If not for you,someone may not be living
You mean those 3?...oh yeah
8.You are special and unique
i been told that a million times..
9.Someone that you don't even know exists loves you
..really?....Good Lord!
10.When you make the biggest mistake ever,something good comes from it
...learning from that mistake
11.When you think the world has turned its back on you,take a look: you most likely turned your back on the world
Oh yeah...i didn't even know that
12.When you think you have no chance of getting what you want,you probably won't get it,but if you believe in yourself,probably sooner or later,you will get it.
..i believe in i-self..so much! So i'm gonna get that right?
13.Always remember the compliments you recieved.Forget about the rude remarks
...Point taken....
14.Always tell someone how you feel about them;you will feel much better when they know.
..i'll always remember that...always!
15.If you have a great friend,take time to let them know that they are great.
...you mean my mum?...i always tell her that.She's such a gr8 thing that's ever happened to me.
Oh yeah..i know...the 3 stoogies,my mum and of course myself
2.At least 15 people in this world love you in some way
i wish i knew those
3.The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you
I believe that,she had always wanted to be in my shoes,she always wanted to know how Edwin and i are doing,she wanted Edwin..well she can have him now...
4.A simple smile from you can bring happiness to anyone,even if they don't like you
Yah...i know
5.Every night,SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to bed
...true...the 3 stoogies and my mum
6.You mean the world to someone
...and to my self too
7.If not for you,someone may not be living
You mean those 3?...oh yeah
8.You are special and unique
i been told that a million times..
9.Someone that you don't even know exists loves you
..really?....Good Lord!
10.When you make the biggest mistake ever,something good comes from it
...learning from that mistake
11.When you think the world has turned its back on you,take a look: you most likely turned your back on the world
Oh yeah...i didn't even know that
12.When you think you have no chance of getting what you want,you probably won't get it,but if you believe in yourself,probably sooner or later,you will get it.
..i believe in i-self..so much! So i'm gonna get that right?
13.Always remember the compliments you recieved.Forget about the rude remarks
...Point taken....
14.Always tell someone how you feel about them;you will feel much better when they know.
..i'll always remember that...always!
15.If you have a great friend,take time to let them know that they are great.
...you mean my mum?...i always tell her that.She's such a gr8 thing that's ever happened to me.
Is it Really True?
I was told that for me to be happy i should at least do all of the following:
1. Free your heart from hatred.
2. Free your mind from worries.
3. Live simply.
4. Give more.
5. Expect less.
Gues it's true.Afterall,after a storm, the birds sing,why shouldn't i?
1. Free your heart from hatred.
2. Free your mind from worries.
3. Live simply.
4. Give more.
5. Expect less.
Gues it's true.Afterall,after a storm, the birds sing,why shouldn't i?
Lover's Month
For the first time in...how many years?....10?...12?...yeah somewhere there,i'll be spending this time alone.Feels so sad and yet so relieving.
Valentine's day.I used to think that it's a day just like any other.Well...maybe because i had someone at the time,now that i'll be by me..i gues it's now that i realise how special it is.
When is it?...wednesday?...okay...i'll be at work in the morning till 4:30..
And then i know i'll be heading home if i ain't gonna stay here and surf the net.It's not month end as yet so probably if i have money then i'll go grab that Wimpy double bugger by myself.
I'm tired of the countless Naija movies i have.Well...still i know i'm gonna watch one of them over again.Which one?...let's see....oh yes! The Royal Palace or maybe The Holy Diamond or probably..ermmm...The Billionaire's Club.
Yes?..what?...True Love?,My Love?,Daytime Lovers?,My Destiny?,Cinderella?...i ain't gonna watch those!...nxhee!...for what?
What's Love Got To Do With it anyway?....**sob,sob,sob**blowing my nose**sneeze,sneeze**!
You think i'm crying?...truth is...yes i am.
God...! It's so hurting!
Valentine's day.I used to think that it's a day just like any other.Well...maybe because i had someone at the time,now that i'll be by me..i gues it's now that i realise how special it is.
When is it?...wednesday?...okay...i'll be at work in the morning till 4:30..
And then i know i'll be heading home if i ain't gonna stay here and surf the net.It's not month end as yet so probably if i have money then i'll go grab that Wimpy double bugger by myself.
I'm tired of the countless Naija movies i have.Well...still i know i'm gonna watch one of them over again.Which one?...let's see....oh yes! The Royal Palace or maybe The Holy Diamond or probably..ermmm...The Billionaire's Club.
Yes?..what?...True Love?,My Love?,Daytime Lovers?,My Destiny?,Cinderella?...i ain't gonna watch those!...nxhee!...for what?
What's Love Got To Do With it anyway?....**sob,sob,sob**blowing my nose**sneeze,sneeze**!
You think i'm crying?...truth is...yes i am.
God...! It's so hurting!
Friday, February 09, 2007
This Morning...
I couldn't help but sing along to Avril's sweet melodies:
...It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
Making me feel like i was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as i fall
Letting me know we were donnnne!
You were everything
Everything that i wanted
We were meant to be supposed to be
But we lost it, all the memories
So close to me just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my Happy Ending....
...It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
Making me feel like i was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as i fall
Letting me know we were donnnne!
You were everything
Everything that i wanted
We were meant to be supposed to be
But we lost it, all the memories
So close to me just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my Happy Ending....
Thursday, February 08, 2007
They Ain't Mine
Pictures like these ones? Mine? God forbid oh! i can't keep pictures like these! For what?Wednesday, February 07, 2007
Life's Too Precious To Waste
Sometimes i sit and wonder why i have to worry myself over some funny un-important things than just sit and worry about what the future holds for these three little creatures(who came in row).The girl wants to be a nurse,the nextt boy wants to be a soldier and another boy wishes to become a policeman.I never asked them why they wanna be that,but at least they got minds to think!Well..it's up to them for what they wanna become.I aint got any objection to that but to wish them the best of luck....and please God....bless them..!
Ermmmm...!
You can be free like that physically,but mentally you know that you have a lot to work on.I'll be posting some of the messages from my phone,so watch this column!Somebody somewhere once said, ''just a cup of water, please!''...that's exactly what i need right now!
Sunday, February 04, 2007
The Dead End
I was waiting anxiously for Tia to come tell me all about her trip to Cape Town to meet Walter.Well ever since she came back,she's has never talked about it,and to my view,it was like she never wanted to talk about it.I was wondering what could've happened.She wasn't calling the guy these days like she used to before she went to see him.Calls coming into her phone at late nights were cut short.
After a whole lot of courage given to her i donno by who,she started telling me all about it.
''Walter lied to me Jane.I told him i don't wanna be lied to.He said he was living alone,but i found two other guys there who he said are his couzins and that they came in like three months ago.Why the fuck didn't he tell me about them when we were talking online? I was looking forward to just having him to myself and just the two of us in the house,but that never happened and i always missed him because he was always out...something to do with meeting up with business associates.What business? He never told me about it when i asked.If he's home his phone was always ringing,and he'll be giving orders to the person at the other end.''
''So what's wrong in there? I mean he's a man,and he's probably making a living down there.You got a problem with that?.C'mon girlfriend,you should be proud of him now!''
''You know sunday morning we went to Johannesburg.In fact we went Benoni,a place called modeebee.It's kinda like a maximum prison.I asked what we were going to do there.He said we were coming to check on one of the guys he used to do business with.''
''What business is it if i may ask?''
''Do you mind listening?'',Tia said to me with a raised eyebrow.''the guy in prison has got plots like in most parts of the world.Brazil,Holland,The U.K,America,and so on.If you see that guy you won't believe what i was told he did.Ohh God! he's Godammn cute!''
''what did he doooo Tia say it!'', i insisted.
''i was told he got caught at one of the airports trying to cross with some drugs''.The drugs were hidden inside his stomach! Can you believe that? I was so scared when i heard that and then i started wondering what kinda person Walter is.''
''I used to do that myself,'' Walter told Tia on their way back. ''but i figured out there ain't enough money from that business and i quit and switched on to something else.''
''soo what do you do now?'' Tia asked.
''Last week the police came to my house and they searched every where''.
''Why?''
''Well apparently,somebody told them i'm involved in the Nigeria 419 thing,so they searched my house and took my laptop,my business phone and my last R30 000 i had in the house''.
''Why du keep that kinda money inside the house? Why not open an account and lorge it in there?''
''It's difficult to open bank account in South Africa,especially if you are foreigner''
''Oh! Really? Okay.But...wena are you involved with the 419 thing?''
Walter gave a foxy laugh.The topic was never talked about it again.
''So what are you planning to do now girlfriend?''
''Who? me? You think i'm going back to that guy? God forbid oh! I aint going back there.You know i was always scared that something might come up while i was still there.Like maybe the police will come again.And Walter has got so many shops there,where does he get the money to open such kind of shops and as many as they are? Ah-ah! i aint going back to him now! Tufia kwa!''
''Did you tell him that?''
''Tell him what? He'll see the writing on the wall.I can't live with that kind of person''.
''Mmh! i gues i believe you.You know Eddy used to tell me about Nigerians and how dangerous they are.He doesn't really like them,especially those from the Ibu tribe.Yoruba i hear they are better,but well they are all Nigerians,there's no difference!...But you guys did had 'fun' right?''
''Oh you mean the sex? Of course now.He's way too good.He's got a sexy circumcised dick that worked wonders.But still i aint going back.Whatever we had,we had.''
''You know Tia nna i aint got anything to say to that.That's your sole decision to make,and i hope that's what you want.I hope one day you won't come running and talking shit coz still i wont have anything to say to you then like now.''
''I've made up my mind Jane,that guy is dangerous.Even in just the way he talks on the phone.He'll be making this scary faces.Ah-ah!''
''okay...okay''
''how about Edwin? Have you talked to him lately?''
''Edwin and i are talking.things will be fine i gues.''
''let them be fine oh.You been mourning him for way too long now.''
After a whole lot of courage given to her i donno by who,she started telling me all about it.
''Walter lied to me Jane.I told him i don't wanna be lied to.He said he was living alone,but i found two other guys there who he said are his couzins and that they came in like three months ago.Why the fuck didn't he tell me about them when we were talking online? I was looking forward to just having him to myself and just the two of us in the house,but that never happened and i always missed him because he was always out...something to do with meeting up with business associates.What business? He never told me about it when i asked.If he's home his phone was always ringing,and he'll be giving orders to the person at the other end.''
''So what's wrong in there? I mean he's a man,and he's probably making a living down there.You got a problem with that?.C'mon girlfriend,you should be proud of him now!''
''You know sunday morning we went to Johannesburg.In fact we went Benoni,a place called modeebee.It's kinda like a maximum prison.I asked what we were going to do there.He said we were coming to check on one of the guys he used to do business with.''
''What business is it if i may ask?''
''Do you mind listening?'',Tia said to me with a raised eyebrow.''the guy in prison has got plots like in most parts of the world.Brazil,Holland,The U.K,America,and so on.If you see that guy you won't believe what i was told he did.Ohh God! he's Godammn cute!''
''what did he doooo Tia say it!'', i insisted.
''i was told he got caught at one of the airports trying to cross with some drugs''.The drugs were hidden inside his stomach! Can you believe that? I was so scared when i heard that and then i started wondering what kinda person Walter is.''
''I used to do that myself,'' Walter told Tia on their way back. ''but i figured out there ain't enough money from that business and i quit and switched on to something else.''
''soo what do you do now?'' Tia asked.
''Last week the police came to my house and they searched every where''.
''Why?''
''Well apparently,somebody told them i'm involved in the Nigeria 419 thing,so they searched my house and took my laptop,my business phone and my last R30 000 i had in the house''.
''Why du keep that kinda money inside the house? Why not open an account and lorge it in there?''
''It's difficult to open bank account in South Africa,especially if you are foreigner''
''Oh! Really? Okay.But...wena are you involved with the 419 thing?''
Walter gave a foxy laugh.The topic was never talked about it again.
''So what are you planning to do now girlfriend?''
''Who? me? You think i'm going back to that guy? God forbid oh! I aint going back there.You know i was always scared that something might come up while i was still there.Like maybe the police will come again.And Walter has got so many shops there,where does he get the money to open such kind of shops and as many as they are? Ah-ah! i aint going back to him now! Tufia kwa!''
''Did you tell him that?''
''Tell him what? He'll see the writing on the wall.I can't live with that kind of person''.
''Mmh! i gues i believe you.You know Eddy used to tell me about Nigerians and how dangerous they are.He doesn't really like them,especially those from the Ibu tribe.Yoruba i hear they are better,but well they are all Nigerians,there's no difference!...But you guys did had 'fun' right?''
''Oh you mean the sex? Of course now.He's way too good.He's got a sexy circumcised dick that worked wonders.But still i aint going back.Whatever we had,we had.''
''You know Tia nna i aint got anything to say to that.That's your sole decision to make,and i hope that's what you want.I hope one day you won't come running and talking shit coz still i wont have anything to say to you then like now.''
''I've made up my mind Jane,that guy is dangerous.Even in just the way he talks on the phone.He'll be making this scary faces.Ah-ah!''
''okay...okay''
''how about Edwin? Have you talked to him lately?''
''Edwin and i are talking.things will be fine i gues.''
''let them be fine oh.You been mourning him for way too long now.''
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